Monday, July 12, 2010

To be a cat

I realised that I have a very relaxed stance towards investing my money these days. It's not a lack of interest on my part - I mean who wouldn't want to make more money right? It's more of a change in attitude in me. Perhaps it's the general lack of emotions towards my profits or losses that accompanied this change in attitude. This didn't happen overnight. It happened in bits and pieces over the years, accumulating perhaps like water dripping into a cup until the final droplet of water pushes the surface of the water beyond the boundary of the cup.

In place of viewing my charts and reading up religiously on annual reports, instead of discussing fervently about the entry positions and the merits and demerits of a particular company, I chose to rest and relax. Initially I felt guilt, like I wasn't doing my part in making the best out of my available time on earth. But as time goes, you see life and death of counters in the stock market and you see life and death of people on earth, and you cannot but realise that there must be a better use of time than being obsessed over all things financial. This epiphany must have hit me quite hard, because I always had a tight rein of things on monetary matters - trying to find the best deals, trying to make the most of my time, trying to beat this beat that...

This is not my cat. Though I say that, both have this seen-it-all behaviour typical of cats

...and then I looked at my cat, lazily grooming itself by licking her paws before snugging up her tail as a pillow and drifting into a comfortable nap in the afternoon. Loving cats makes me love watching time goes by, doing nothing.

In view of my current change in attitude, perhaps it's time to look more into instruments with little or no maintenance. For observant readers, you would have noticed that the list of books that I've read or am reading (found on the lower right hand corner of the blog) are filled with books of various topics with the exception of financial stuff. I just can't bring myself to read one of these books nowadays, having read them religiously for so long.

I think I'm getting less practical and more human now. I'm loving every minute of it.


PanzerGrenadier said...


Sign of maturity? :-)

I too find myself less obsessive about beating the returns although it is still my target to obtain at least 2 x fixed deposits rates for ROI of my investible capital. But I am more relaxed about it as well.

My recent upheavals in personal relationships has made me more philosophical about life and money :-)

Enjoy being yourself in life.

Be well and prosper.

Jeremy said...

Dear LP,
It's great to know that you are taking a step back and not being caught up too heavily in financial stuff and the likes. I also share a similar feeling with you that there is more to life than just being caught up with our goals/ milestones in life (e.g. financial goals, career goals, status goals). Sometimes, just being able to have free moments of rest or solitude and reflect upon life is an enjoyment to me. It is not necessary for me to become a millionaire, a CEO or business owner of some top company or some well-known public figure. I just simply hope that I be contented with what I have and be able to savour the simple moments of life (spending time with people I love over simple meals or sharing with them about how good God is).

Jeremy :-)

Buggery said...

Hi LP,

Good to hear about slowing down a little to appreciate life more!

I'm probably miles behind you in both areas of finance and life experiences but yeah you never know what will happen in life and life is all about experiences ain't it?


Createwealth8888 said...

sign of browning out?

la papillion said...

Hi PG,

I'm not sure if it's a sign of maturity. Maybe it's being less fixated on goals and being more focused on enjoying life, haha :)

Definitely more philosophical as well :)

la papillion said...

Hi Jeremy,

Haha, so it's not just me :) I think contentment and living in the moment can be a refreshing change of pace.

Alas, our peak period is coming soon, haha

la papillion said...

Hi Buggery,

No lah, where got miles behind? Same journey, different start and end point, so there's nothing much to compare :)

Indeed, life is made up of experiences. Hopefully, more of the happy sort, haha :)

la papillion said...

Hi bro8888,

Read your article. It's very true. Things that I like changed over the years. Sometimes, it's just pure determination to keep it going on, after the initial interest had all died out.

I think it's something like love. After infatuation, then it becomes more of a duty and responsibility rather than heady beady love all the way.

Jeremy said...

Hi LP,
Yes, true love is about commitment to one another be it between a married couple or with our loved ones or friends. It is about faithfulness, care, concern and responsibility to each other. That is why during marriage vows, the statement "to stay together be it in poor or wealth, to stay together whether in health or not, till death do us part" has strong connotations of commitment and faithfulness to a relationship. It is definitely beyond just feelings alone, requiring a steadfast undying effort to build a lasting commitment to a relationship. Love tends to consider the other party's interest and is not about self-interest, thus always the commitment to care for the other party.

Jeremy :-)

Grey said...


Anonymous said...

Your article resonate so loudly with me. Like you I m a person much focus on money matters. Watch my portfolio like a hawk. Alas having survived many crisis and now with a huge dent on my portfolio, I m finally at peace with myself, no longer m i trading madly, averging my stocks up/down, fill my time strategize how to beat the mkt.

I liken my awakenings as chasing the pot of gold in my 20s and living my life in my 30s, with more confidence and faith in myself, not just in material sense.

la papillion said...

Hi Jeremy,

Well said well said. Unfortunately, in real life, things get ugly regardless of whatever vows or promises made at the moment of union.

la papillion said...

Hi anonymous,

Haha, glad that I found someone in sync with my thoughts :) Likewise, I also have more confident and faith in myself, having gone through huge ups and downs in my portfolio.

It's a quiet and joyful sense of calmness, don't you think?